five years.

five years ago today, i didn't know a perfect day existed.


i didn't know how much i'd love living in our new house together. how much i'd enjoy being a wife. how everything finally would feel like it was just right.


i didn’t know that he’d be deployed after just four months. how we’d spend 18 months apart. how horrible goodbyes would be. how every prayer would be answered and he'd come home to me.


i didn’t know that life could be so fun. that the same things could make me laugh for years. that trying new things could unlock so many new experiences. that enjoyment is multiplied by a trillion when you enjoy something with your best friend.


i didn’t know about the trials. the tears. the losses. how God would give me someone who’d so amazingly help me bear my burdens. someone who would always have my back.


i didn’t know about Caleb B. how we’d get to be his parents. how wonderful and hard it would be at times and how fortunate i'd feel to have him in my corner.


and i didn’t know about this newest little one. what he or she would add to our lives before even entering the world. how thankful i'd be to be on this journey together again.


i didn’t know that i wanted to grow old. that i’d actually look forward to it. that every day, every year would feel like a gift. that I’d be part of a story that i never wanted to end.



five years ago today i stood in the shadows, arm-in-arm with my dad, watching our bridal party walk down the aisle, hearing these lyrics:

These are the moments
I thank God that I’m alive
These are the moments
I’ll remember all my life
I have all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more.

and those lyrics resonate in my heart today. for all we've been through, all we have and all that awaits us - i thank the Lord with all of my heart. truly, i could not ask for more.


happy anniversary, luke. i loveth you.